I am a 28-year old, attractive, fit, heterosexual male. Unfortunately for me, I am also a sissy transvestite. I wish I wasn't. I wish I didn't shave my legs every morning. I wish I didn't wear panties every day. I wish I didn't come home from work and masturbate in a dress and high heels.
But I do. I am.
It gets worse. Just being a pathetic crossdresser isn't enough for me. Sometimes wearing a tight, leather skirt and fuck-me pumps doesn't make me hard. Sometimes I need to face the humiliation of being what I can't deny I am: a perverted sissy transvestite. So on go a pair of women's jeans or black pants. On goes a pink shirt with 3/4 sleeves and a pair of high-heeled boots. Or women's loafers with a three inch stacked heel. Or saddle shoes. And then it's off to the mall. No wig. No makeup. No hiding. Just a sissyboy trying on stilettos at Steve Madden. Buying a bra at Victoria's Secret. Taking a dress into the changing room at Hot Topic.
The stares. The whispering behind my back. The pointing and giggling. Look at that faggot. Oh my god, he's wearing high heels. There's a guy in there trying on skirts. The burning shame. The total humiliation. Can't look up, can't make eye contact. I'm too embarrassed. I don't believe what I'm wearing. I can't believe what I am. I hand the pretty, young cashier my money. She smiles and neatly folds the negligee, places it gently in the bag. What must she think of me? What does she say to her co-workers the minute I'm gone? Why can't I be a real man like her boyfriend? Why are my panties getting wet?
Then it's back to the car. Quickly, hurriedly. I have to get out of here. I got what I came for. My god, I'm a sissy. My heels echo loudly in the parking garage. I'm so utterly ashamed. But I'm so hard now, too. So hard I can barely put my key in the car door. Barely start the engine and pull out before... before I'm rubbing my tiny little dick through my pants and my panties. Telling myself to wait but knowing I won't, knowing I can't. And then suddenly it's too late. I'm cumming in my panties. Cumming and cumming like the humiliated transvestite I am.