11.13.2012

Tried To Be A Real Man, And This Is What I Got.


So it looks like I'm back. Back on this blog. Back in my panties. And back on my knees.


Turns out, I really am a fairy for life. How fucking, fucking pathetic.

29 comments:

m said...

No. Fucking. Way.

Thought you migrated onto tumblr or killed yourself or something.

Sissy Man said...

Yay you're back :D Im a sissy for life too :D

Anonymous said...

you are the best.

Anonymous said...

Great to have you back. A pathetic sissy here too. I'm married, try daily to be a man but I'm actually a virgin and have never consumated my marriage because all I crave is sissy humiliation in public, being laughed at by women, teen girls, having my panties visible, and dream of maybe one day serving a man. What a life.

Welcome back

Anonymous said...

You at least tried to reclaim your manhood. I have now totally given up on mine. A year ago while I was totally dolled up, another man with about 10 years on me showed me why I failed as a man. I drove to his place dressed in a short skirt, velvet top, black pantyhose and 4" black pumps. Once I arrived, he took turns fucking my mouth and ass. He made me take off my pumps and pantyhose, and I begged him to let me put my pumps back on so I could watch my shoes waving in the air as he pounded my pussy butt. Finally before his jizz splashed down my throat, he was on the phone with his girlfriend lying about how he was at the office while I mindlessly sucked away. Just before he forced me to swallow, he said to me "do you know what I like about you? You do what you're told and you don't complain."

Deep down I knew i should have been horrified at my situation. I had totally surrendered what little manhood I had left. But I was in ecstasy. I had been used like a woman and I wanted more.

I have dressed in heels, pantyhose and women's negligee almost every day since, and am looking to be a real man's long term sissy girlfriend.

We may be pathetic, but it's a price I will pay for sexual bliss.

Anonymous said...

figures... sucks doesn't it? i don't wanna do this shit at all anymore but my penis does. fucking sucks

Anonymous said...

Wow.
Thank God you are back!!
Please please don't leave us again.
You taught me to embrace my shame. To accept the humiliation of being a cocksucking sissy faggot queer.
To give up on women and to accept my homosexuality.
That I was always a queer and just fooled myself telling myself I was straight, then bi, but now since i haven't had a girlfriend in 10 years, it must be obvious to everyone that I am a total homo.
Thank you for your contributions to sissy queers like us.
I would love to share my stories of shame with you.
Call me
Sissy Amy Swallows.

SxyTVinyl7000@yahoo.com said...

Oh my fucking god, you're back!!! Yesss!!!!!.....christ I keep trying to exorcise the wanking transvestite faggotry addict out of me to no avail......c'est la motherfucking vie.

Anonymous said...

glad to see you back
sorry you had a bad experiece

Anonymous said...

I know all about your "bad experience". I have one every time i try to get a real girl. My pathetic sissy dick goes limp, I try and try, take viagra but still have a hard time fucking her sweet pussy. Some girls at first even try to help and be understanding. But inevitably they always blow me off and go get themselves some real man hard cock to fuck them good and hard. And I can't blame them. I know they have real needs for hard sex and I could never satisfy them. And , inevitably, I wind up in panties once again, looking at hard cocks on the internet, jerking off to hard cocks in my panties and blowing my "faggots load" and crying how I couldn't get her sweet pussy. Then, also inevitably, I get on craigslist and before you know it I on my knees satisftying a real man hard cock while wearing my faggot panties. And as the man gets ready to blow into my faggot mouth, I think how shameful what I am is doing but I can't help myself. I think what the girl would think if she could see me sucking this cock. As the hard cock blows a big hot sperm load into my faggot mouth and down my throat, I know what I am. And so does he. He thanks me. I realize that I can't satisfy sweet pussy, but I can really satisfy a hard horny man cock.
The latest girl's rejection makes me resign myself to my true calling. More panties, more cock, more sperm, more shame.
Again, welcome back to being a panty wearing cocksucking faggot. We missed you.
And welcome home.

Anonymous said...

The self-loathing of that last anonymous comment was cock hardening good stuff!

Anonymous said...

I can't seem to figure out a way to follow your posts. Can you help me pretty please ?

Janine Marlowe said...

Very acutely observed :)

Anonymous said...

Damn, bitch. It sure took you long enough to realize it.

You can't change what you are. Of course, neither can I.

Anonymous said...

who is that in the photos?

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure I even belong in this category, please don't take that wrong. I like was turned onto this hypnosis tape close to a year ago now. Cockworship by Isabella. Valentine. Me being transexual, as well as on hormones most of my life. Figured what could it hurt, after-all I'd had both boyfriends and girl-friends before. Most of the girlfriends I've had, have been train-wrecks, as it's usually thru alcohol, that anything ever becomes of it. Then I try to help them out or make them better, for themselves, the way I'd like to be. Usually always up front with them, within the last 20 yrs, as it's not fair to them. I love going shopping with them or for them. I love eating at the Y or eating them out, but other than that, I'm useless down below, thru years of female induced hormone castration and that's ok.

I've also live nine plus yrs in true self, as well as still get out on occasions for shoes and other accessories needed. But, was pushed into a rabbit hole of man hell about 15 yrs back. Times sure have changed, as far as other's excepting us more. Not like back in the day. I still take hormones, as well as they have only gotten better as well.

Just as I've been with guys or had boyfriends in the past. I do notice a difference in my thought processes these days, since hypnosis. I use to look at women and decide how that outfit or accessories would look on me.

Now I find myself looking at women and even girls and I see strength and power, someone, for whom is above me. Other things I notice is my thoughts to their outfits, as I've caught myself on occasions even wondering how much wood or erections that outfit would create and then I start getting scared, as that's not me. Or how I know the trigger words or this color pink is one of them. The weird part about it, is though as it would appear the trigger words are expanding. Like instead of one word, it may be 5 or more, as if someone is doing this on purpose, which I can't believe or think it's just in my mind.:)

I find myself wanting girly things or slut-wear, as if it becomes stronger and stronger. I can't seem or appear to stop watching the hypno's, as I feel unhappy and upset with myself, when doing so. As well as desire to move forward with my life, as have plans written down to transition again this year. Finding myself rubbing my nipples more and more, as I have full B-cups, wanting D or DD. I better stop here. I do so love you guys and hope I haven't offended anyone

If anyone knows how to get into camming or starting out, I find myself wanting and desiring to try or possibly a dating site, as I desire a boyfriend or two. Giggles and laughter and. Hugs to you all

Anonymous said...

+what a lovely blog, as well as commend you all

Anonymous said...

Im glad your back....you are our voice...

Anonymous said...

So faggot you tried and failed to be a real man? You idiot you should have known that you would fail at being a real man. You are a worthless sissy and you always will be. Hope you have finally learned this and have stopped pretending to be anything other than a mincing fairy queer.

Anonymous said...

I'm not into guys like it seems most of you sissy's are into men, but I am forever into wearing woman's clothes at times to get aroused. The urges to wear pretty lingerie, outfits and pretty pumps are so strong that I end up telling 'every' g/f or female lover about it and most of the girls laugh and say they want a real man, so I end up wanking off in my pretty things alone until the next female i come across that shows some interest in me. I just can't and won't put away my pretty clothes and my pretty black shiney pumps and throw away the key, my cock just gets so thick and hard and seeing and feeling myself wearing those things while playing around with a lady is too much excitement ... so fun to cum while feeling so pretty and/or slutty :0)

Anonymous said...

what a bunch of losers we are. these stories are so us. We have to wear womens cloths, buy make-up, wigs, highheels just to sexually function. Like a snell leaves a trail of slims we leave our dignity behind us and live in our shame. LOL

Anonymous said...

Hello ladies, or wanna be? Im quite female, I love your fashion sense, in sexy clothes! And those legs, I'm jealous! I have thunder thighs! You don't? Just sexy, smooth legs, and beautiful bodies, and faces! Keep looking pretty girls! Else S.

Anonymous said...

I too gave up on tryjng to be a man. I gave in to temptation and met up with a man I met online. He behaved like a true gent -wine and dined me then took me back to his hotel room where he seduced me and fucked me up the arse. It was lovely. Then he blindfolded me, tied my hands and legs to the bedposts, came all over my face, took my panties and left. Leaving me tied up in a dress, covered in semen, to wait for the cleaners in the morning.

Anonymous said...

That just sounds too good. Left tied and in girls clothes for the cleaners to find . I would want the maid to spank my penis until I came and then spit in my face.

Anonymous said...

I have looked all over the Internet and this is the only site that can give me what I want, I started dressing at age 8 and when I was in jr high my older sister bf caught me in panties and bra jerking off to her latest issue of play girl , a nude guy with a very large penis, I dreamed I could be his gf and stroked my sissy cock in her panties. I guess he had a key because he walked in an and saw how much of a sissy girl I am. He dropped his pants and stuck his penis in my face telling nme to suck it like"my cunt sister" does it. I was very hurt because I never thought if my older sister as a whore girl but I guess she is. He told me I looked hot in her bra and
panties and to kneel and suck cock.i did and loved it since he creamed in my mouth and I swallowed it all.when my sister came home I asked where she had been and it turned out she had been to a party where she got gang fucked. I told her I sucked off her guy and she said she would buy me my own femme clothes so she did not have to worry about cum stains on hers. I now wear them every weekend and love her to watch me suck her bf big cock. She is a whore cocksucker but so am I, I can pass for a girl as long as you keep your hands out if my panties and just stick a hard cock in. Youth

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Anonymous said...

Absolutely no point in trying desperately to cling on to any vestige of manhood when you are a total sissy slut inside. Face the truth about it all and enjoy the experience. Took me so long as tried denying myself but failed and now wear panties every day